Depression.. Pku related or postpartum?

Let's talk about the elephant that's in the room. A lot of people frown upon sharing real emotions so if we're being honest here I have dealt with depression for years. But with PKU it's hard to tell if it's genetically or just PKU related. Some people might wonder how PKU plays a role in it. But it can if your levels are not in control. It can bring you into a dark place and bring out the worst in you. It can make you look in a mirror and not like the person that you are. Depression is not something to joke with. It brings you into a dark hole and all you want to do is see your way out. But some people are so scared to speak up when they know they need someone to talk to or at least need some type of help. For years I never did but after I had my son my depression came back and it came back with a punch. I realize that the depression wasn't just postpartum it was also PKU related. Not a whole lot of people really understand having both at the same time until they walk into your shoes but in the PKU Community I'm sure anyone could sympathize. But having depression doesn't mean you're trying to seek attention I just means that you want to be happy you want the darkness to go away. But I didn't just have depression I had really bad anxiety to. It's hard to admit when you're not completely okay cuz you don't ever want anybody to look at you like you're crazy. But my advice to anyone that ever feels that way is to speak up and get help. I'm proud to say that I did and then I feel a whole lot better I've seen what personally could happen if I never seek help and I love my family so much that I would not want him to put through so much hurt that I experienced when I was younger. But anyone that has PKU here is my absolute advice to you if you are a teenager, whatever you do don't ever try anything new that you're not supposed to or even fall off diet that's where everything goes wrong and then the more you do it the more it doesn't feel like you have a conscious anymore about what you eat. To adults I completely sympathize on how hard it is to stay on diet on at all times. Between Financial burdens and finding the time between having a full-time job or raising a family. It's not easy life is a lot busier than what it used to be but I can also say that if you work real hard at your diet you'll feel more proud of yourself I know I did.  and I'm going to be honest I am no saint and I meant the I've struggled since my son has been born but it's a struggle that I'm willing to face and willing to find a way to make everything work. so if anything I hope when you read this you take some advice from it